So here we are, five days into the new year, and I'm already banging my head against the wall. I created a list of things I want to accomplish this year, and I get hit by the bug of doubt. Can I really do what I planned? Will my muse play nice and help keep me motivated? Will my cat leave me alone long enough to write my daily goal of 1000 words?
What I want to know is how do you guys do it? How do you get over the daily worries of whether anyone will really like your writing? I can't be the only neurotic writer out there who has this fear. But then, maybe you're like me and take that fear and use it to prove those naysayers wrong. I have to admit that I absolutely hated high school. There were a few wonderful memories, but mostly I couldn't wait for the school day to end, to get away from the teasing and snide remarks. I wasn't hideous back in those days, but I acted like an idiot, couldn't keep my mouth shut to save my life because I had no verbal filter--still don't most days. And there were a fair number of people I thought were my friends who told me I would never make it as a writer.
Now I don't consider myself a vindictive person, and I can only hold a grudge until I fall asleep then I get over it and move on. But being told I would never achieve my dream chaffed my ego in a big way. Yes, I had a ton to learn about writing mechanics, but I knew I could tell a mean story. Egotistical? Maybe. But if I didn't believe in myself, who would?
With graduation well over 15 years behind me, I can look at those naysayers, shake my butt as I dance around my office and proudly say "PPPLLLLLLTTTTT!"
Ehem, so back to 2010. I have a list of goals for 2010.
1) to lose 20 pounds (I know, I have this resolution every year)
2) stalk agents for representation
3) complete three short stories
4) submit previous mentioned short stories.
Now that list (with the exception of #1) may not be daunting but for me, let's just say I always have great intentions, but my follow through sometimes sucks big time.
So, what are you goals for our bright and shiny New Year?